Lapis calcareus burren

Eising's Limestone Proving

Limestone burren
Introduction
As a result of the events recounted in the Marble proving, I decided to prove Limestone as well. The limestone sample was procured from St. Fachanan's well in Carran in Co. Clare. This was potentised by Helios Pharmacy.

The provers
The instructions to the provers were the same as for the Marble proving. One prover was given sac lac and produced very little in the way of symptoms. The remaining provers are labelled A to I. D is my own proving. A, B, D, E, G and I are female. C, F and H are male. The numbers after the letters refer to the number of days into the proving.
The proving of limestone

Mind
A. 1 I was driving around town that evening. Everything looked crystal clear and very beautiful. All the streets and people looked really clear, almost like looking through crystal clear water. Watery, water flowing would be the feeling. Fluids flowing in my body and everything outside looks really clear and watery - beautiful.

B. 1 I'm feeling quite tired and irritable (evening). I'll see how I feel in the morning.

C. 1 1.30 am. While I was writing a letter, I had to stand up to go to the bathroom. I had a sensation that I was much taller than ever. It lasted a few seconds; I felt very slim and tall - the sensation came and went.

D 5.00 pm. Took first remedy. Ten minutes later I developed a pain in right side of head, one inch behind temple. Sharp pressing in one spot. Lasted 10 minutes. Followed by a feeling like the right side of my head was expanding. Left side felt small and flat. Right shoulder and arm getting larger. Feeling like the upper right side was expanding into everything. For the remainder of the evening I was feeling in really good form and very happy.

F. 1 Morning. Feeling disembodied, removed. Tired, yawning. Dropping things. Feeling as though mind not completely connected to body.

H. 1 One hour after first remedy, started to feel disconnected. Things seem a bit unreal. It's a pleasant feeling and I'm happy to flow with it.

A. 2 Feel kind of tired, but not an unpleasant feeling. Just a physical tiredness. Sitting in the restaurant, I suddenly got this feeling as if my body was thin and my arms and hands were very large. This sensation lasted a few seconds. I feel very at peace with myself - like lack of tension in my body. Still my watery feeling - all fluids moving.
People telling me my skin looks clear. I feel really relaxed in myself - a lovely feeling. At a party last night I felt very comfortable and at ease with myself. I'm really enjoying myself.

B. 2 Feel detached from the day (school day). I have to get the kids to school, but am dull and heavy. In afternoon, I felt voraciously hungry. It was like the kind of hunger you get after smoking hash. I desperately wanted something sweet. But not being a sweet-toothed person, I had nothing in the house. I contented myself with banana sandwiches, which seemed to do the trick. Later (7.00 pm) I got really tired and had to go to bed. Woke at 9.00 pm. Made cocoa very sweet and cheese on toast - it was lovely.

I feel like I've got the beginning of flu. Looking forward to tomorrow - the possibility of a sweet bun in Bewley's restaurant.

C. 2 I went to sleep around 5.00 am and woke before 9.00 am full of energy.

D. 2 I woke in the morning singing. The words I was singing (to the tune of "Under the Boardwalk") were: Under the sea, Under the sea, On a blanket with my baby, That's where I'll be.

Later that morning I was driving to town. I saw a sign for a bird sanctuary. Immediately, I got consumed by the idea that I should buy land for miles around, to make sure all the birds would be safe. I felt very obsessive about this. Then suddenly realised that I didn't have the money. Continued driving - came to a turlough. Got totally obsessed by the water.

I just wanted to keep staring at it - feel it, touch it. Still thinking about the birds and how happy they would be if this was all theirs. The started formulating the idea that "we" should get together and buy up loads of land everywhere and then hand it back to nature. Then nobody could dispute it or have wars over it, etc.

Driving back from town at twilight, I was feeling very uneasy - like anything could happen at twilight.

F. 2 Still not sure whether it's my mind or body driving the car. feel very tired. Eyes feel like they are sunk in my head.

G. 2 Feeling of heavy self-blame.

I. 2 Feeling lazy, spaced out, can't motivate myself to do anything. Feel good about myself.

A. 3 Very relaxed. I feel very patient. I've got this very nice attitude to the world. A man passed in front of my car at the traffic lights. He had a real attitude problem. I thought - wouldn't it be great fun to mow him down with the car, while still having this very nice attitude.

People keep telling me my skin looks clear. My son thought I was wearing makeup. Everything seems really easy. I seem to be moving from one thing to another with great ease. Very contented and comfortable in myself.

I've got a sensation in my eyes, forehead like I'm pushing through a veil over my eyes. It's a slight tension, but feels good. It's like I see sometimes with great clarity and I'm trying to got so that it's a permanent state.

I feel in myself that I feel lovely. But when I look in the mirror, I see a very haggard, tired face, especially around the eyes. Out to dinner with the family. I was amused by two of my sisters complaining and criticising. I had this grand air of benevolence. I was watching this man at the next table and thinking he looked lovely - shiny and pink like a pig.

E I heard a knock at the door - panicked - what if I'm caught?

A lot of feeling inferior to others. A lot of feeling ignored - not recognised in my job. Feel pushed out and not part of things. Feel people are trying to put me down or take me down a peg or two. Feel I shouldn't be wearing things that draw attention to myself.

B. 3 1.00 pm. I'm cranky and out of sorts - feel tired, no logical reason. I had a good nights sleep. But I find having to think and do ordinary tasks a burden. I'd rather be in bed asleep. I also feel lonely - longing for adult company. I know if I just put my mind to something I'd be fine. But I'd love to sleep.

4.00 pm. I want to be left alone so I can sleep.

Felt need to talk. Friend rang to ask me over tonight. Need to be out of my normal surroundings. Would love to have a drink - wine/Guinness - watch a video - be distracted from mood.

I needed reassurance and company. I could lose my temper easily if anything was demanded of me. Feel like I'm talking louder than normal - trying to get people to understand me. I wish the parents of the kids I'm baby-sitting would arrive. Even though it's my daughter who is minding them and playing with them. Time seems to be moving too slowly. I want it to be night time, so I can go to sleep. I feel trapped by today's situation.

6.00 pm. Feel in better form. I'm on my own. I talked to some adults so I don't feel the heaviness or loneliness now. I've spent the day eating bread or drinking tea. Nothing has satisfied me - I feel hungry. Fight with my son because he said I was acting weird to his friends. I had asked them to leave, because it was the first time today I was on my own. I found their energy too much, too hyper.

I felt contemptuous of people who were looking for me to help. I felt imposed upon.
C. 3 12.00 pm. In bed ready to sleep. I felt an amazing craving to eat duck or goose. In my mind I could see slices of white meat and at one point I was eating a cooked wing. When the image came to me, I felt the juices from my mouth forming and I swallowed them. I was fully awake. I said duck or goose because while eating the wing I knew it could fly.

D. 3 I feel strange this morning. I'm looking at people and things and everything seems far away - in feeling, not visually. A slightly uneasy feeling with this.
E. 3 Concentration difficult. Spacey, like being stoned. Weak and shaky, as though I haven't eaten - empty feeling emotionally.

Stayed with friend - felt homesick. Felt used, felt annoyed, like an idiot. I did what she was doing. Thinking aloud - unheard.

Bum feels big, square and hard, like a man's.
Thought of father - listened to music he liked - felt sad.

F. 3 Still the spaced out feeling.

H. 3 Feeling very distant. Things seem unreal. Feel like I'm dissipating and my boundaries are becoming less defined. A bit anxious with this. Time is moving very slowly and I seem to be noticing every detail of every second.

A. 4 I feel very bountiful. As though everything I need will be provided with ease and grace. That I am very bountiful - bigger and larger than life. I have this attitude of benevolence.

A feeling of really loving and caring. I feel slight strain around my eyes. When I looked in the mirror earlier, I thought I looked fine. But I looked a few minutes ago - all I could see was that pale and very haggard expression around my eyes. Black, sunken hollows under my eyes and lines. I was sitting on the couch having breakfast - being very comfortable. I had this great inflated feeling.

After eating, my stomach felt sick. It's like I just began to shrink down, my whole body curled up into a sort of jelly mass. It's not in the least disturbing. It's like I want to be like this now, all curled up with no solid support (from bones). It's like when I look in the mirror. I can see only the exhausted feeling coming from my stomach to my eyes. It seems like everybody's internal state is exaggerated and I can really see it clearly.

looking at my plants - they look really wretched but very brave to have put up with my bad treatment and neglect. I feel really guilty. But it seems like such a task to give them some water. I keep trying to not look at them - but keep catching their eye out of the corner of mine. I'm not able to move in order to feed them. They keep imposing themselves on me. I have to get up to feed them. I can't have to look at them. I feed them - minutes later they look happier - I feel quite pleased.

My visual sense is heightened. Everything looks much clearer, like crystal or a mountain spring. I have this nice, easy relationship with everyone. Real calm feeling inside. I think everyone is great crack (fun). When I sit down I get really exhausted, but as soon as I move I feel great.

B. 4 Feel very self-critical. I'm not good enough - very uncomfortable with myself. The kids have gone off, and that has taken a lot of the angry, trapped feeling away. I'm enjoying being on my own - it's given me time for reflection. Had a bath and a siesta.

C. 4 I noticed that my hair was annoying me. A few days ago, I went to the barber shop. Since then, I have wanted to cut my hair short. The feeling is that by doing so I will have less to worry about. Perhaps I would be able to think and feel more clearly. Also, a sense of sadness has entered my life. It's related to the fact that I'm not close to the people I most love (like my family and son and girlfriend).

I feel I am not being supportive to them and that I have created my life at present so they can not be near me and I can be alone. I have found myself wanting to cry. My eyes are covered with tears but they won't come out. An overall sensation of sadness but it seems to contain nothing and everything.

D. 4 I hated the thought of getting up this morning - very tired. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel tired all day. I start doing things and can't motivate myself to continue. I think of birds and would like to be free. I'm obsessively attracted to water.

I'm looking out of soft, melted, watery eyes. My skin is intensely dry and itchy. These lines are going around in my head all day:
Water, water everywhere
And not a drop to drink
Water, water everywhere
And all the boards do shrink.
(from the Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner)

I want to dream, or am in a dream, I don't know.

I go to bed for a while, then get up. I want to do something, then I don't know what to do. The same with food, I have no desire for anything. Can't decide what I would like. I feel very stuck in myself. I want to be free like a bird. Still experiencing anxiety at twilight.

E Feeling groggy, impatient. Feeling annoyed that I'd stayed in friend's place. Didn't enjoy it. Didn't appreciate her efforts. Annoyed at friend for looking at her watch. Had to go to toilet to calm down. Thought I might start shouting. Resentful - want things my way. Feel mentally active.

E Missing friend - wanted to talk to her. Felt desperate, disappointed. Want to cry out in frustration. Felt I wasn't being heard. One minute I feel bad - out of order. Then I think, why shouldn't I say what I feel.

Had a good chat with another friend. Wanted to tell someone about my anger. Glad to know she thinks the remedy brought it up. It made me feel much better. I was giving myself a hard time.

Glad to be home - I tidied up and the place is nice and warm. I want security and home and to be by myself.
Flash of black and white dog snapping at me.

F. 4 At coffee break in the morning, someone mentioned Holland. I saw the word as a Dutch person would see it - with the same familiarity. This happened in a trance-like state. (This prover was born in Holland but has not previously identified with it.)

G Very aware of my feet, the way they make contact with the ground. The way they support my body and carry my body around. This is a very sensual feeling.

Bouts of irritability lasting about half an hour. Feel ill used and hard done by - then feel quite fine suddenly. These bouts seem to occur for no particular reason.

H. 4 I feel sad for no reason that I know. Time is so slow and I just seem to be waiting - I don't know what for.
I. 4 Feel a bit strange in conversation. Can't focus or stay with it. Drifting off. Feel I would feel better if I could cry - but I can't.

A. 5 Last night I lost my voice. I am really exhausted. I am just lying still - my voice is still. It has the stillness and quietness of death. I feel I am lying in a glass coffin, no part of my body moving. It's like the stillness and quietness of death. Only I'm not cold. It's not unpleasant or fearful. It's like being dormant for the winter. Like a snowy, January feeling. The weather and nature outside looks very dormant as well. It doesn't have the glow of the last few days. Just a very quiet waiting.

My voice is very still. Everybody is whispering at me. It's like the whole world is cloaked in this feeling. My sons are in a very quiet and gentle mood, with little movement.

I had the sensation earlier as if my legs were really heavy and big. Pure leaden weights. The rest of my body felt light. It doesn't have the expansive feeling - just very heavy and immobile. This sensation has moved from my legs to my arms, and has lodged at the moment in my shoulders.

My sons started to play and fight. The noise really upset me - that they had no reverence for the silence.
B. 5 Self-worth very low. I don't feel capable of my responsibilities. Feel I'm talking too much and too loud on the phone. Enjoy reading and writing, but in a more escapist way, rather than having to think too much.

Afternoon - outside, I felt very lonely for adult company. A failure, a maker of empty promises, etc. Generally, I feel pretty terrible about myself. It might be associated with hunger. I'm going to eat and find out.

C. 5 The feeling I have had for the past few days is that everything is an illusion. I feel that I myself am an illusion. For 4 days I have not eaten much. I do not seem to be hungry and I have the feeling of lightness not only in my body but in my mind. I experience the sensation of being somewhere else. I feel like a feather - a sad and confused feather. I know that other people can see this in me and I feel like not seeing any of my friends. But in the house alone, I do not feel right.

Just a few minutes ago, while playing the fiddle, I felt sick all round in my body. At one point, I wanted to vomit. I have the sensation that every minute is an eternity and I am a long way to bedtime. I do not have the energy to do anything.
D. 5 This morning, I had a compulsion to listen to the song "Bad Moon Rising" by Credence Clearwater Revival. I don't have it, but was feeling quite desperate and urgent about it.

I feel intensely sad. The tears are behind my eyes all the time but I can't cry. I have noticed that every now and again I start talking with an American accent (I have never been in America). I can't pin down when this happens because I seem to be in a very timeless space and my memory is not operating very well. But this American accent has also been amusedly pointed out to me.

Afternoon - at a meeting, very friendly and chatty. Suddenly, I start spacing out, not able to focus on what people are saying. Would get an odd look from someone - haul myself back. Time to leave the meeting came. I was overcome with anxiety at the thought of having to leave. I could not relate to anything existing outside that room.

All that existed was where I was at that moment. I forced myself to leave. Once outside the door, I was fine, because that then became where I was. I love driving, because in the car there is not the same shock, changing environment. It's like taking a bit of my environment with me.

E Fixed ideas - I should be more open. I should have stayed awake and done more exercise. Feel like boyfriend is the only one I can trust. Need to protect myself from others. Wish I could be thick-skinned and plough on ahead. I'm wasting time worrying about family.

Feel physically lazy but mentally active. Got back to bed with a nice cup of tea and felt happy for the first time in days.
Missed friend - can't believe I miss her again. Kicked door - how could she not have heard me - what's going on?
E Later, calm again.

Maybe I didn't want to go anyway. But I know I really wanted to be asked. Feel really loved and supported by boyfriend. Managed to meet my friend and express my anger and frustration.
E I wanted to get my hair cut. Couldn't afford the hairdresser. A woman turned up and offered me a free hair cut. This happens a lot - I think of someone and they turn up.

G. 5 Awareness of my feet has moved up to the rest of my body. Becoming uncomfortable - body feels too tight. Cannot tolerate alcohol too well - become incoherent. Find it difficult to concentrate while driving. Attention easily distracted by what is going on elsewhere.

Even a Coke can rolling down the side of the road. Actually a danger to myself driving.
Feel slightly callow. Reports from Rwanda made me feel nothing except to say to myself that these people have been killing off one another for years, so it doesn't matter.

H Feeling very intensely everything that is going on. Taking in too much. I want to be with the hills and the sea where everything flows and has a rhythm. Anything harsh or loud or sudden affects me terribly. I feel lost and alone and like I'm feeling my way with everything. Time is so slow - but that's alright. It's like experiencing every moment and living in each moment totally.
A The last while I have been very nervous, edgy, jumpy. In car with friend driving, felt she was going to crash. It's quite difficult to tell the difference between fantasy and reality. Very nervous, frightened feeling - panic attack - stomach feels sick. afraid to drive into town, afraid to be on my own.

Horrible feeling that something is going to happen. Had to go to town - asked friend to come with me and drive. Had to drive myself. Once I got in the car and started driving I was fine. That seems to be the pattern - once I'm in the car and driving, all my fear and tiredness goes.

With some friends. One friend was talking seriously about something he was into. I kept turning everything into a joke. I laughed so much that I was nearly sick, tears streaming down my face. Then I got nervous that I was going to zip off into another dimension. My mind was flying. I thought everything was very funny.

A very tenuous hold on reality and earth. Extreme fear, extreme hilarity - very little hold on reality.

I was lying in bed between sleeping and waking. I was thinking - this is brilliant, I don't feel all these dark presences around me any more. Memory of myself - small, standing in the doorway watching shadows of men - big and dark on stairs. Remembering that I used to have these memories in the past. During the day, I realised that I never had that experience in my life.

A few times on closing my eyes, I would see clear images before me - all with a lot of movement, i.e. very thin, gangly dancers, dancing very wildly, or a pack of dogs running. All black or brindly - shiny dogs, all close together. An aerial view.
All last week I thought I was much thinner - more elegant. I weighed myself, and I was the same weight as the week before.
B Talking a lot and rapidly - I want to talk about myself. My attitude to money is different over the past few days. I don't care how much I spend, I don't care about tomorrow.

C I have very little energy for physical and intellectual work. Sleeping 10 to 12 hours. I feel very fragile - like a softness. I notice that my perception of things and people is more acute. Looking at faces of people, I have noticed new insights into then and parts of their personalities I did not know before. My new state of being seems to be shifting into an awareness of the present. More ability to listen to music and experience people I am with.

D I keep having a recurring unreal memory. I sit down and relax and start remembering. It goes like this:

I remember when I was in the southern states of America. Then I get an image of a place with a sort of wooden hut or shack. There is an old man bending over some cut wood with his back to me. Another man is standing almost beside me. His eyes are very soft and watery - he looks very sad and displaced. They are both black.

The memory continues. I remember Africa. I see a row of wooden huts. People are being kept in them to be shipped to America. Then I focus on the Atlantic in between. I feel all the water of the Atlantic inside myself. I feel the need to cry it all out, but can't. I feel overwhelmed by sadness and pain.

Then I come to and realise that I have never been to either America or Africa.

My memory is bad. I can't relate to plans - things I'm supposed to be doing. This sense of being totally in the here and now - no past, no future, no ego, no boundaries, no linear time. Or I'm relating to an unreal past in America. This is sitting on me like something that happened recently and is personal. Slavery, being trapped and I want to break free. I feel in such pain.

D I was beside the sea - closing my eyes and listening to it. Suddenly I felt like the waves were coming over me - consuming me. I felt I was suddenly going to disappear onto some other dimension.

D Every time I think of something, it seems to happen. Like I went into a record shop to try to buy "Bad Moon Rising" - couldn't find it. Suddenly they put it on in the shop. I felt very excited and rushed to the counter and bought it. This is happening a lot - think of someone and there they are, etc.

E I've put on a lot of weight. I haven't had any babies but I've lost my figure; I look fat. I seem to be crossing my arms and legs a lot - holding myself tight. I want to bawl and bawl but tears won't come. I'm conscious of my boyfriend feeling awkward about the state I'm in. I don't know what it's about, so I can't stop talking about it - it's like I'm in therapy.
When the sun shines, I feel brilliant.

G Felt panicky last night over minor worry. Lots of conversations, reminiscing about the "old days" and how much better they were.

Worries have crystallised into anxiety about injuring someone inadvertently - food poisoning while cooking. Or worry about driving and letting attention slip and having an accident.

A I checked my money today. I had £20. I went around for the day spending money. No matter how much I spent, I still had £20. We went out for dinner and I still had £19.30 left. I felt that, whatever I spent, the universe would replenish it; this felt fine. (Discovered 4 months later that I had written cheques.)
I have a feeling like a veil over my eyes - I can't see clearly. I feel confused and apprehensive. I don't know what's what. Anxiety in top of chest and dull feeling on top of head.

I have a lodger in my house and I've become frightened of him. It's like having a beast roaming around my house. He is looking to me like the beast in Beauty and the Beast. When he goes up and down the stairs, I want to hide. I'm frightened by him. I don't want to talk to him. I'd like him to go away.

I feel I'm very dirty, smelly. I want to be alone. It seems like a big ordeal to do anything. Or I can be in great form and feel everything is funny.

B Feel light, as if I haven't had enough to eat - out of touch. Feeling trapped and snappish with the kids. Wishing I was on my own. Startled - jumped at phone ringing. Cranky with the kids. Feel tired but don't want to go to bed. want to chat to people. One day I feel in really bad form and cranky and wanting to be alone. The next i feel in great form.

C I feel sometimes that my head is expanding, at the same time heavy. A friend remarked that I was not in the present. That is the sensation I get when my head is expanding - I have to make a great effort to concentrate on what I am doing. I feel very sad and wish I could be back home with my family and friends - the people I most love. In many ways I feel fragile.

I have had the sensation of lightness in my body and the need of grounding myself. Sleep helps.

D I woke at 7.00 am with a start because there was a "bad moon rising". Felt very anxious. Can't relate to memories of my life. It's like having no past and no future. Totally in the here and now. Time seems eternal - experiencing every moment. Difficulty relating to anything which has just happened; relate only to what is happening.

A great feeling of anxiety if I have to do something different or go somewhere else. I can't comprehend it until I am there.
I love driving, taking my space with me. Driving is easy, effortless. I feel in tune and feel I am taken care of by nature.

I don't feel like I'm driving - I feel like the road is taking me on.

The words "Mardi Gras" come into my head occasionally and I get raging, intensely angry and frustrated. I don't understand it.

I'm totally obsessed with the sea. I keep going to the sea at Doolin, right out in the Atlantic. The waves are huge. I have a tug of war with myself. I want to go in. I want to be in - under - on the sea. (I can't swim). I stand there, breathing it in. I see images of old boats - dark wood and sails. I desperately want a boat. Suddenly they are not there anymore. I feel so sad.

I tried a few nights ago to persuade my husband to come to the sea with me at 2.00 am. I felt I could only feel good there.
I had a weird experience a couple of days ago. I was in a hardware shop. On the wall were rows of spanners ranging from small to very large. I was staring at the largest and thought that would be handy on the boat. Then I realised that I don't have a boat. But still I wanted the spanner. I spent half an hour trying to justify spending £40 on the spanner, knowing that the family would crack up laughing if I came home with a giant spanner. I didn't buy it but felt very upset.

E Met my friend at break. Enjoyed chatting to her and listening to her. Feel the frustration is over. Feel much brighter.
Met a woman in a pub. I felt I really understood her and what she was saying - I could really relate to it. I think she enjoyed talking to me and we had a laugh.

D A lot of the time I feel I have been silent for so long that my voice won't come out. Like in shops, I get panicked because I think my voice won't come. But, to my surprise, it does.

E Bad mood all day. Got told off at work
Felt bitter - don't know why. Scared it's going to get worse. Will I drive my boyfriend and others away with this "head" on me? Felling fat and old. Saw my flabby stomach in the mirror and felt disgusted. Why can't I be thin? Feel like crying. The sky was beautiful, but I still felt miserable. That empty feeling - wobbly. Want to cry but can't.
Went home - boyfriend came back. I'm irritable. He's trying to tease me and when he comes to kiss me, I scream at him. I get up to do something and whack my toes on the leg of a chair - scream again. I want to bawl and bawl but it won't come. I don't know what's going on.

E Every now and again I get short flashes of Africa.

E Very giddy and flirtatious with men and women. Surprised with myself. Later, I wonder was it an act. Tend to question myself.

F Bad time at work. Depressed, can't stand sympathy. Apathetic, can't be bothered to do anything. Spent the whole day playing computer games.

G Feeling very dreamy, easily distracted, sleeping a lot. Very home oriented.

Felt terrible today, cross-eyed, dizzy and disorientated. Went shopping - couldn't wait to get back home. Felt very unsafe - not for myself, but for others. Terrified that I would do something injurious to others. Felt massive relief on returning home. I hope this doesn't go on much longer.

I feel terrible. I feel very old. This must be how old people feel when their circulation goes.
Enjoy working in solitude with the soil and the earth.

A Everything seems really clear - crystal clear. People say I'm much more irritable or over the top pleasant. Sometimes I feel exhausted - great difficulty moving. But once I move I feel really energetic, a heightened sense of well being .
Things affect me profoundly - seeing other's misery. I feel like crying. I'm oversensitive think I can see right inside them.
Delusion that the top part of my body was very large. Really big ,soft, pink. I thought I was very beautiful, warm, cosy, soft. I was walking around feeling proud of myself - feeling cuddly and warm.

B. Very highly charged weekend. Wonderful feeling of brain working on a high level, like a sexual charge. Felt very sexual - couldn't handle those feelings. Better outdoors - like the sexual current was too strong for me. Like a teenage passion. Went out, walked among trees - felt better.
Felt like a different person - emotions too much for me. Very open - over the top - easy to stimulate. Wouldn't like to have to deal with real situations.

E. Nice sunny morning - it seems to affect me. Feel lucky to be here. I can smell the daffodils and watch the water.
Wondering about proving. Is it every second day I feel bad.? Is the worst over? The music is beautiful - trickly like the water.

It's nice to be on my own - feel relaxed

C. I have noticed that my mind can go from being very clear to a state of confusion very easily. Things that I remember from the past - unpleasant things seem to trigger that expansion of my head. As if even the cells were multiplying the same time as the energy inside my head is expanding.

Sometimes I feel like I am somewhere else - like in Wonderland. It takes a second to jump from one state to the next.
I got that expansion of head while in a pub with friends. I forgot that I was with friends and went into a blank kind of space. Later I felt very peaceful.

I have noticed more and more that nothing matters. That nothing is relevant or has any importance. It's like whatever happens it is the same - one way or another.

I have been thinking again about shaving all my hair. I don't know if I am losing too much hair. I keep finding hairs and I do not like it. Having long hair seems to take a lot of my time. I want to simplify my life as much as possible.

D. Feel like I'm over sensitive to everything. Absorbing everything that is going on for everyone. I have no protection, no boundaries. I have to laugh to release the tension. I find myself moving farther away from people with problems because it's too much. - I'm taking it all on.

Example; The father of a friend died - she was talking to me about it - she needed to talk - she was grief stricken I listened for some time. I couldn't bear it - I wanted to cry - couldn't. So I went to the next room - started making jokes about death and laughed and laughed for the rest of the evening.

I feel overwhelmed by grief myself about America and the slave trade. It is sitting on me like something that happened last week. It feels personal. I don't feel I have a right to share it or to grieve because it's unreal.
I don't know what is real and what is not anymore.

Obviously, I'm being grossly misinterpreted because what I am doing has nothing to do with what I am feeling. When I am sad - I laugh. Words used by others to describe me are - cynical, untrustworthy, callous. I feel surprised and hurt (nobody has seen me as any of those in my life before).

I want people to understand and I'm trying to show myself - but I feel I'm not being heard or seen.
I feel caged in myself - I want to get out.

Sometimes in the car I think of death with great sadness - thinking how sad others - my family will be when I die and I cry thinking about it.

My memory is bad because I can only relate to now.

When I'm with someone - making an arrangement or something - I will be totally into it. As soon as I turn away - it's gone because I then have a new reality.

E. Haven't seen my mother for a while - forgot about her.

Feel a lot of sympathy, understanding with people.

Feel old, wiser but stiffer. Have put on weight,. Look and feel fatter.

H. The expression "He lives in a world of his own" came to mind. I feel that's where I've been. I don't know what has been going on.

A. Freaking out about lodger in house feeling invaded. Feel he will bring disaster on us. Visions of swarms of crazy people taking over the house.

In group of people some looked miserable, wretched and full of tragedy, others looked glowing and abundant. The 1st lot seemed insignificant to me. I couldn't see any reason to talk to them (although they were friends).

I felt lucid and clear

Afterwards my behaviour was described as obnoxious. Others said - spaced out - on another plane.

I am either excessively sensitive and caring or am very dismissive.

When working with people (over the past 2 weeks) I ask them - "who owns you?"
feeling and getting very passionate about people - feeling that they don't own themselves.

I feel overpowered by dominant people - very easily. I feel I'll be squashed - I want to leave.

B. I feel full of life - too much. Like a lush jungle or fireworks. Afraid it will burn out - like I'm burning too bright.
Very wordy, confident. Telling people everything about myself - not able to keep anything back. Not thinking about tomorrow I wish I felt like this all the time - it's like savouring every bit of life.

Next day - Feel like the after effects of drugs. Very down - like I've been partying all night and am suffering the after effects. Lonely for adult company, sorry for myself.. Guilty for being cranky. No confidence. Eating helps. Have been angry more.

Have been feeling ignored and without support - sad.

C. Feeling abandoned by the world - feeling sorry for myself - want to sleep.
Time has been taking over my life - not able to do the things I'm supposed to do . Behind time with everything. I am confused with my life.

E. Felt spaced - almost hysterical giggling. When friend leaves feel paranoid, worried - I can't control the laughing. Feel ashamed of myself.

People telling me I've got fat and look older. I'm wondering why they think it's OK to say these things to me.
Feeling like I'm chatting too much to someone I don't really know, why do I do that - waffling on like I do. It would be nice to be home listening to music.

Felt like crying but ended laughing hysterically - felt better after.
Got very excited about something I was doing. Felt more energy than normal - more enthusiastic.

B. I feel easily dominated. Somebody who is dominating was talking. I felt almost physically sick - overpowered. I wanted to not look at her - she was too much.

Feeling close to tears - sad about the way the group is going. Very vulnerable to atmospheres.

Tired not able to feel in the real world

Feel guilty that I can't connect.

Feel old. I want someone to mind me.

I can get a great flurry of activity and very excited about things.

B I don't feel any attachment to town anymore. People were always the important thing. I'm not that pushed now.
It's like I'm languid and conversation is an effort. I find peoples talking too much - it's too intense and gets under my skin.

E No matter how I try to do my best at work, I feel I'm a nuisance.
When I did visit my mother, I just ignored her and watched TV. In my mother's kitchen, I thought my father (who is dead) was behind me.

Woke up feeling awful (from dreams of boyfriend having affairs). I was feeling fine, happy with my boyfriend and the way we are together. Am I really paranoid, jealous, insecure? It creeps up on me to knock my confidence. I don't want to be worried about these things - it means I'm not free.

Why am I so bitchy? What's wrong with me? Am I going mad?

Feel frightened - feel I have enemies. I started asking God for help.
D For the past few weeks I've noticed that I get totally engrossed in what ever I'm doing. Anything sudden happening completely freaks me out and I feel like screaming and screaming with terror. Like if I'm sitting in a room with people conversing - I'm totally there. If someone suddenly walks in - I want to scream and scream. I feel it inside but don't let it out.

I then get really worried about insanity and feel that if anyone knew how I was feeling, they might lock me up.
In fact at times I feel I am going insane.
I want to move very slowly and gently with nature and life. I don't want to disturb anything or be disturbed. I want everything to be gentle and easy and free.

I feel very sad and very lost.

B. Went to the Aran islands on the boat . On the way over, I had the feeling that all the sadness and happiness of the world was in me. Wanted to be alone.
Went walking and walking over fields and walls. Feeling of fear that I'd be absorbed into the landscape and never escape. I turned back.

I felt part of the stones. They were almost invisible because they were part of me - fluid, water, merging. Felt there were air bubbles under my skin.

E Very affected by the weather - resentful, complaining. The sun comes out and I feel better immediately - high and everything is wonderful.

Woke frightened from a little noise.

I woke during the night not knowing where I was. I thought my boyfriend was there and I felt homesick.
The fire alarm went off. I freaked and hid under the table - I thought I was going to be killed.
I've stopped listening to music and radio during the proving. Wanted everything quiet. Want to hear what is happening. Fear of people breaking in and attacking me - I'm very jumpy.

Irritable at work. Hustle and bustle and noise irritating me.

Forgetting things seems to be a big part of this proving.

I've got into gardening or going to the grave - nice, quiet places.

D. Somebody mentioned their mother today I got sudden burst of anxiety and thought " Oh my God - I've got one of them" I realised that I hadn't visited my Mum in over 2 months - since I started the proving. Got really worried - wondering how I would be able to relate to her. Would she see how estranged I've become? How would I be able to act 'normal'?
Normally I would see my Mum fairly often as she lives quite close.

E Panic and wanting to hide under the table when someone unexpected walks in. Told by a friend that I went very white and then red when this happened. I started laughing nervously and tingling across my shoulders and chest for a while after.
Feel fat and heavy, feel the weight on my hips when I walk. Feel stiff and heavy and old and disgusting - shameful.

E Since the sexual dreams relating to my brothers, I feel like it has always been there with my brothers and father. That I need to do something to work it out. I find it shocking and feel very messed up.

D I have been very affected by the weather. If it's cloudy, overcast, I feel sad, depressed. If it rains, I will be washed away. If the sun shines, I feel exhilarated and high and light.

E I feel it's been a long, hard winter. I've been hibernating, storing fat. Now I just really want it to be spring.

Dreams
D. 1 I was on the Burren. I saw a woman I know driving a car up the road with no lights on - it was night time. As she went along, I saw the lights of another car coming towards her. I was concerned and angry that she could be so irresponsible. I rang the police to tell them to do something. They were very friendly, but wondered if they would be able to catch her. I explained that she had no other way to go except to the town, and if they came from the town they would be bound to find her.

B. 1 A homoeopath I know was there in the bedroom with her niece and I plus two guys. The fellows and I were rehearsing a scene for a film - seeing which of them would be suitable as my partner. We all wore wigs plus being fully dressed. I rehearsed a kissing scene with one of the guys. But I could feel no desire for him. I thought he was awkward.
Switch to outside where a row of big old houses are being renovated. Nuala is there. She gives an old man a bunch of weeds. He gives her a half-gallon can of water.

C. 1 My sleep was full of dreams - very vivid. In the morning, I could remember the people involved but not the circumstances.

D. 2 Ex-husband was having a heart attack. He was at my front door, phoning me from my own phone.

D. 2 A friend of mine needed curtains for his windows. A lot of confusion about the size of his windows.

G. 4 Nuala and myself are in the room. I am spraying myself and her with perfume. She asks for the name of the perfume. I see that it is called "Victim".

D I seem to dream about ghosts all night. There were 8 people sitting around talking. Some were ghosts and some were people, but it was impossible to tell the difference.

B. 5 In a friend's flat. There were lots of people, mostly mothers and babies. It was like a party - music, lots of hustle and bustle. I was talking to a friend and we went into the hallway. The landlady was coming in. Immediately, I wanted to hide because I felt guilty because of the noise. I knew I was being foolish. We went into the boiler room. We were joined by others doing the same thing. Then we laughed about it because we knew we were being foolish.

A I was giving out. Had a flash of a very bright place - silver white light, very shiny with loads of people moving.

A I was in Africa. I decided to walk from east to west Africa. I knew that Mt. Kilimanjaro was in the centre. So what you
had to do was to walk to the top of the mountain and down the other side. It would take 2 days. I started on the journey - chatting to people on the way - very pleasant. There were villages and people working.

We'd stop for a chat - everybody friendly. I was walking uphill - beautiful weather - lovely walk. Suddenly I realised that Africa was much wider than I thought and it wouldn't be possible to do it in 2 days. I was confused, since I didn't want to spend a few months doing the journey.

A I was standing by a pier watching the sea and all the activity on the pier. There were fishermen and families with kids playing. I noticed a man getting into a car - a very respectably dressed man who looked business like. I noticed that there were 4 more such people in the car. They looked like FBI or people on an important mission - outstanding men in their communities. The driver got into the car and drove into the sea. I was quite amazed by this - lots of people watching - nobody was alarmed. So I thought that this must be normal. The day was beautiful.

The sea was deep; as the car went in, it began to sink to the bottom. The driver got out and the rest of them sank to the bottom. Still nobody panicked or were disturbed by the 4 men drowning. It was done so openly and with such ease on a bright, sunny day that I thought it must be normal.

Later, I was in the police station. The driver was there, or his brother - I wasn't sure. I thought I should mention the incident. But everything looked so normal that I decided it wasn't my place to interfere. They were all going about their business, friendly and well in charge and unperturbed by the day's events. It was obviously a regular occurrence. So I went off, a bit perplexed, also feeling a bit guilty for not doing anything. I was also afraid to mention the incident in case there might be severe repercussions.

B Nightmare. A woman whose mother had been gassed to death. She had been a witness as a child. She is in a doctor's consulting room for a check-up. She is placed in what appears to be a shower unit, with an electrical sliding door, three-quarters closed, so that she can breathe, but not enough to get out. Nurse goes out of sight for conversation. Door closes by itself. Gas builds up inside.

Woman realises what is happening, she is very frightened. She sees her lover coming towards the door, then he backs away. Twice more he backs away. Third time he has an axe. He smashes through the glass. She is delighted to be saved. But he continues chopping until he cuts through her feet. She is sitting on the bottom of the shower unit, curled up with her back over her knees and he cuts across her back.

Next scene, we see her hair loosened, throwing an armless torso over a balcony, like a huge piece of meat. Then she starts going down big stairs and her lover comes up to meet her. He takes her hand - she is unwilling, and they go down together. He is semi pulling her. It looks like a war movie - black and white - wearing Macs. She was wearing a beret before the murder, very long red hair after and red, red lipstick and heavy makeup.

B A man was captive on a huge wooden candelabra, very high. He was being watched from a balcony. He was blindfolded. The idea was that he was to cross on the two beams on either side of the candles while they were lit. If he did so unharmed, he could escape. This was all in the foyer of the Druid theatre. He and witness were in Shakespearean costume.

D Eight people were doing proving of "Bad Moon Rising". They were producing very weird symptoms.

F My wife had another baby, born premature. Child was fine, but I had to get them to hospital. Couldn't manage to dial phone or get a vehicle. One of those dreams where nobody takes you seriously. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get anyone to help.

B Am in large spacious building. Am told that this is a very large mobile home. Various people hanging about. Am approached by a bowler-hatted bureaucrat who hands me a summons for crimes I am supposed to have committed 13 years ago in Dublin. I am indignant and frightened.

B Had dreams after having had conversations. The dreams were reflective of the situations.

C Dream about a house near a lake and a big mountain and a field planted with maize. I was with another person and we heard that the place had been for sale for a couple of years. Nobody had been interested in buying it. After looking around, we came to the conclusion that the house and the place had a magical quality about them.

F Started off talking to a woman who was a ghost. I was strongly attracted to her. She was very pale, very beautiful. But I knew she was not normal. I was able to touch her and talk to her.

I was with a bunch of kids who were ghosts. They were also very pale and fragile. One of the kids did something. I grabbed him. He recoiled in pain and said, "Don't you know it's very easy to hurt a ghost."

G Dreams about being much thinner, lithe and fit.

G Dream about wolves. Up in the Burren and a wolf pack running past. Slightly alarmed, but most excited and exhilarated at discovering wolves in the Burren.

E I was baby-sitting. Felt inferior - their maid. Feeling of not being appreciated - recognised. Flash of dog from childhood.
E We were at a party. I was sick of my clothes. So I put on these bright yellow tights and colourful shorts and top. I felt a bit dumpy and was thinking I shouldn't wear things that draw attention to me. My boyfriend was kissing a girl in front of me. She is plain, skinny with braces on her teeth. I think he doesn't really fancy her, but just to annoy me.

D In a place with other people. There is a woman there with long fair hair. I befriended her - she seemed very fragile and vulnerable. After a while, I realised she was trying to murder me. Her method was to use a needle to gouge a deep cut in my hand, between the thumb and first finger, and then to pour on largactyl. Apparently, largactyl administered in this way was fatal.

So I spent a lot of effort escaping from her. After a while I saw her attacking another person. I rushed over and pushed her out of the way. While doing this, I grazed my hand in the right place and she quickly poured largactyl on it. My hand started to swell and go numb. I felt scared. After a couple of minutes, I realised that I had only grazed my hand and, for largactyl to work, it needed a deep cut. I knew I would be OK.

A Man I know is blind and being led by a woman of the streets. They have an arrangement - she will look after him until he dies, then she gets his money. She pushes him to make as much as possible while he is still alive. It's a practical arrangement. Both have had it tough, no room for sentimentality or romance.

B Dream about a remedy - this remedy. Constantly escaping being prescribed. Homoeopath was running the class. Stimulating, but tiring because we spent hours trying to pin down the remedy. This dream seemed to go on for ages.

C Dream of a person who was mad at me. He came into my house like a tiger and told me how powerful he was. To demonstrate, he transformed my house into the way it was years ago. I tried to talk with him. He was sitting like a tiger looking at the sky and the moon. At one point he attacked me and we fought for a long time. When he was going to harm me around the liver, I blew him and said my power words. To defend myself, I had to transform into a tiger also.

E In house, could see my sister coming bolting to the door, as if she had been shot. She's coming fast and hard, she's terrified. I let her in and know that we're OK. The we are both running down a street, and I remember, this is where it happened. We're both saying, this is where that terrible thing happened. I'm really scared, like my hair is standing on end.

E My brother dressed in tribal gear with a long decorated stick tied to his penis and doing some kind of a dance.

B Dreams are reflective of conversations that have gone on the previous day.

B Dream of a mouse surrounded by cats.

E Dream of a kitten. Put it under my sweater to warm and mind it. It turned vicious and bit into my left hand. Desperately trying to get it off.

D Nightmare. I would be having a conversation with a friend. I'd turn away for a second, look back and they had changed into something really evil. This kept happening with different people and I'd wake up in between, go back to sleep and the same dream continued. then, into the dream came two people who wanted to kill me. One with a corkscrew, the other with a syringe with poison or a drug. I wasn't concerned too much about the corkscrew - I felt it would be difficult to kill with a corkscrew. The other one I was terrified of. I had a scuffle with the syringe person and managed to stick it into them.
D Frequent lascivious dreams.

E A load of people in college. A German woman teaching us a song, like rounds. She is doing a cookery demonstration. I'm not interested, I think I know it all already. Then, in a canteen - rows of tables of people eating. It's like the navy people in uniform. One row of people start singing the song and we're supposed to sing the next bit. But I think it's stupid. Myself and friend try to just walk off, but we are stopped. There are big men with moustaches telling us we have to go back in and sing. They give us slabs of chocolate. It feels like the army, all rules and discipline.

E I was staying in a room with my boyfriend and another girl. There's a single and double bed. She's in the double bed with him, chatting and laughing. I'm getting annoyed but think they are only messing and if I go, she will go into the single bed. I go out and meet my sister going into the bathroom. I'm standing outside hoping my sister will go in and say something to them about why they are in bed together. When I go back in, they are fucking. It's kind of animalistic. They are lying on their sides facing each other and grunting. I pull them apart, angry and embarrassed to be doing it. I'm standing back and he's saying to her "If you were into fucking me, why didn't you approach me before now?" She says it's because of me and that it is my fault he is like this.

E With female friend, hugging and kissing, very intimate. I was the most active.

E I'm painting a room - somebody has painted it already. I think they didn't do a good job. I'm painting with white paint - the more I paint, the more I need to paint. Pink paint keeps showing through.

E I was going somewhere and a kitten was coming towards me. I have to look after it. I see another and I'm kind of put out, but can't leave it. Then there is more and they are really tiny, like little balls of fur; they're black. Then the mother comes and I'm glad I don't have to look after them. Then a pure white cat comes with loads of little white kittens.

Then I'm watching them crossing a park to a shed, afraid a dog might get them. But at the same time, leave them to do it themselves. People come by with dogs on leads but nothing happens. A dog comes along on its own but doesn't notice them. I'm relieved. Then they go into the shed and I'm wondering will they be safe or will a dog get in and they will be cornered.

E I was in the flat and I was married to my brother. He went off and I felt glad he was gone. Somebody was with me and I was saying I was relieved. He is a drunken husband and I'm afraid of him. Then he comes back and I feel really threatened by him, sexually or of violence. I'm really pissed off with him, but I have to watch what I say or I could "get it" - raped or beaten up. I went into the bathroom but he was there, so I couldn't have a shower. But I was glad he wasn't in the bedroom bothering me. The feeling is that I am trapped in this situation and there is nothing I can do. I'm older and married for years. I feel that this is taking place in England.

E My two brothers having a fight. Other members of the family there and we're pulling them apart. One of them is all bruised and cut and I'm trying to look after him and help him and I'm hugging him but it feels taboo because there is a sexual feeling there. Also, because I'm helping him and he's the bad guy.

E My brother, younger than now, dressed up in African tribal gear. Some kind of initiation ceremony.

E I'm with a blond, German man. We are wearing black, broad-rimmed hats. I'm very happy with him. Someone asks if he is German. He says no, but he was in Germany for a long time and that's why he has a German accent. But now he is back. I'm excited and I have to stop myself telling him I love him, because it's too soon, he might be put off. He asks me why I'm so happy and I say "Because I like you." We go into a pub and meet a guy who says to me "You just missed someone doing a great impersonation of you." I think this is funny and go to join them. they are not interested in me and I feel left out.

Head
A. 2 Slight tension in forehead.
B. 3 Heavy dull feeling in head.
D. 1 10 min after 1st remedy - Pain in right side of head - one spot - 1" behind r. temple. Intense pressing. followed by feeling r. side of head expanding.
H. 1 Head feels heavy with pressure - painful on forehead.
I Headache - aching pressure.
A. 3 Dull feeling on top of head.
B. 4 Stuffed feeling in head.
D. 3 Dull pressing pain in forehead.
A Recurrent headaches above eyes.
B Full feeling in head exp. forehead.
B Aching headache - behind temples. Fresh air helps.
B 1.30 headache on going indoors.
B Sharp pain on coughing - feels like crack in l. side of head - like as if skull is cracked.
C Head feels expanded.
D Blocked stuffed feeling in head.
C and G Hair started to go grey.

Eyes
A. 2 Slight tension in my eyes.
B. 2 Eyes sticky as if stuck together.
D. 2 Eyes feel watery. Pain around eyes very sore.
F. 2 Eyes feel sunk in my head.
H. 2 Eyes feel sore and watery.
I Eyes running watery - morning.
A. 3 Slight strain around eyes.
A Recurrent pain in my eyes. Sometimes a dull ache other times sharper.
B Eyes feel dry - I'm blinking to ease them.
B Eyes are dry irritated - I have to rub them.
B Aching behind eyes - fresh air helps.
D Pain over and behind eyes - sore.
D My eyes feel soft and watery all the time.

Vision
A Sensation like a veil over eyes - I can't see clearly.
Ears
B Raised lumps behind ears - r. side mainly.
B Ears blocked after washing hair. Right more than left - makes me deaf.
F. 3 Ringing in ears sudden - 11.00 pm.
B Ears still blocked.
B Deafness in r. ear from water. Discharge from ear - smelly yellow and thick to clear.

Nose
B I find I want to pick my nose because of bits stuck in it. When I blew my nose this morning there were little pieces of harder mucus - very orange amongst clear.
D Nose developed an itch - skin on outside. Intense itch - can't stop scratching it. Sores around l. nostril.
F Cold in head - nose feels watery - no discharge.
B Nose running.
D Nose is very itchy. Skin on nose gone very dry. Have to scratch it until the skin breaks.
B Greenish, yellowish, greyish mucus in nose - sticky.
D I find myself sneezing a bit. Nose very congested - yellowish mucus.

Face
A My face looks pale.
B Developed a rash under skin on r. side of face.
B My face looks pale.
D My face has become very itchy. The skin is very dry.
B Hot feeling in face.

Mouth - teeth
B Aching in my teeth.
E Sweet taste in back of mouth.
F Sore tooth - upper left molar.
E Back of tongue feels swollen.
B Pain in right molars.

Throat
B. 1 Throat feels slightly dry.
B. 2 Slight sore throat on swallowing - Dry throat.
D. 1 My throat feels dry.
F Sore throat.
G Sore throat.
B Have to clear throat of sickly sweet mucus - it won't come up.

Throat external
B Back of neck stiff.
B Neck is cracking.
D A lot of tension in neck.

Stomach
A. 5 Stomach feels sick with anxiety.
B. 2 Afternoon felt voraciously hungry. I desperately wanted something sweet.
C A craving to eat meat - duck or goose 12.00 AM.
D No desire for food.
E 6.30 pm Weak and shaky as though hungry.
E Queasy stomach.
G Stomach churning sickish. Strong desire for starchy, stodgy food (Bread, potatoes) and lots of butter. Very thirsty generally.
H Vomited this morning with cough.
B I've spent the day eating bread and nothing has satisfied me. Cold food feels too cold - almost burning.
B Uncomfortable burning in stomach - relieved by burping.
D Sick feeling in stomach a lot of the time - better eating. A total aversion to fish since starting the proving.
G Stomach churning with anxiety.
B Hot uncomfortable feeling in stomach.
B Have been drinking hot milky drinks - enjoy them (very unusual).

Abdomen
B. 4 A lot of flatulence.
D Abdomen is distended constantly.
G Guts felt peculiar - somewhat painful as if something had come adrift. "Hot rocks" sensation in guts.
I Abdomen feels swollen.
B Lots of gurgling in abdomen and wind first thing in the morning.

Rectum - stool
A. 3 Slight dose of diarrhoea.
B Lots of smelly flatus in the morning.
B Itching and burning in anus.
E 6 hours after 1st remedy passed liquid - sweet smelling yellowish stool.
F. 6 Slightly constipated. Smelly flatus.
H. 2 Diarrhoea.

Urinary
B I wake in the morning from small amounts of urine. Feel like my bladder is full but when I go it's small.
D Urine is very scanty.
I Very little urine although I feel there is a lot.

Genitalia female
B Feel very sexual. The sexual current was too strong for me. Walking in open air helped.
E Increase in sexual desire.
G Woke in the night with v. severe period pains - period very heavy.

Larynx and trachea
A I lost my voice.

Respiration
B I feel breathless - have to take a lot of breaths - panting.
B A bit wheezy.

Coughs and expectoration
A. 4 Started to cough - feel like it's coming from the bottom of my lungs.
B Slight cough - not deep on inhalation. Cough when laughing also aggravated by smoke.
G Slight cough.
H Cough - bouts in morning. Mucus difficult to get up. vomited this morning with the cough.
B Slight cough shallow with sweet mucus.
B Ticklish cough lying down.
B Cough tickling on waking. Morning cough lasted 3/4 hour.
B Persistent dry cough with sweet taste.
B 7.00 am Cough dry with tickle in throat.
B Woke with cough as if crumbs in throat.
B Cough disturbing - couldn't find a comfortable position - woke several times.

Chest
A. 5 Dull heavy pain in l. lung - morning - had to sit down with it.
A. 7 Anxiety feeling at top of chest.
A. 8 Top of chest feels congested.

Back
B. 4 My back feels stiff. Tired feeling in upper back.
E. 4 Chilly - shivers down my back.
B Aching in upper back and neck.
B Lower back and neck cracking. Very tired, dull ache in lower back and neck.
E Morning - aching feeling in upper back - as though compressed when lying. Later - same feeling in lower back when standing.
C Morning - pain in lower back - better from moving.

Extremities
A. 4 Heavy feeling in legs, arms and shoulders.
B Left knee feels sore bruised. Very sweaty on shoulders, neck and back.
B Morning, itchy rash on inside of elbow.
D The backs of my hands are itchy at times.
D Cramps in calves easily. Soreness in calves constantly like they are ready to cramp.
F I'm tired and keep dropping things.
G Stabbing pain from time to time in left elbow. Feet almost blue with the cold on getting up in the morning. Hands very cold.
H All joints feel heavy. Stiffness in right shoulder.
D Soreness in right forearm and wrist on moving it.
A My right thumb joint is stiff and sore. Heavy pain in right leg. Right arm feels heavy - difficulty raising it.
B Stiffness on inside of elbow after writing. Have to stretch arm to relieve.
D All joints feel stiff and heavy.
A Pain dull heavy in arms. Stabbing pain in right shoulder. Pain in right thumb when I bend it.
F Skin peeling on left thumb.

Sleep
A I was kicking and tossing and turning all night - giving out and saying stop that and fuck off in my sleep.
B I was very groggy after second sleep took a long time to wake.
D I woke with a start - this has happened frequently since start of proving.
G I'm sleeping a lot.
B Went to sleep from 12 to 2 pm. Felt dull after.
B I'm sleeping on my right side now (something I normally find impossible).
B Tired feeling - need a lot of sleep.

Perspiration
B Sweaty - hot and uncomfortable with exertion.

Skin
A My whole body is itchy - with sore burning pains in places.
D My skin is very dry.
I Very itchy dry skin.
A Burning itching patches as though on fire - exp. at night.

General
A. 1 I feel kind of tired.
C I was tired all day - no energy.
D I feel cold all the time - can't get enough heat.
F. 1 Tired in the morning - yawning.
G Very physically wiped out.
I Very cold all the time.
A. 4 Feel exhausted sitting - as soon as I move I feel great.
B I feel tired and need fresh air.
E Feel very chilly.
B Need fresh air- sweaty.
A I feel absolutely exhausted sitting.
B I feel extremely cold.